Liz and I went to Mount Rainier yesterday, it was great. $30 gets your carload an amazing hike. Here's John Muir:
"... the most luxuriant and the most extravagantly beautiful of all the alpine gardens I ever beheld in all my mountain-top wanderings." - John Muir, conservationist, 1889
No exaggeration. Paradise is not named wrongly. Walk up the hill for an hour or two and there's unbelieveable richness, there's niche water features dripping over sculptured granite with hanging mosses, OMG, and the screams, was that an eagle I didn't see or was it the marmots, bumbling over the rocks and chewing up the greenery, they're even eating the dirt! And holy cow an enormous white mountain goat sitting on the snow, looking wise and sad, with equal angle, equal length, spiky ears and horns, tucked up cloven hoofs, just watching the hikers go by. Spend the $30, it's better than Disneyland, it's extravagantly beautiful.
On the way up we're driving and some guy in his Laramie has a bumper sticker: Trump for America: Fuck Your Feelings. Thought-provoking. Me and Liz had an argument. She's a psychotherapist, a couples counselor, she's amazing, she often keeps couples together which means their kids get born and get raised better, and grandkids and the whole future of civilization, all in the wisdom of her twinkly crinkly eyes. Yes, go to lizhuntercounseling.com or your own local one; pay the rate. The future is worth a little investment.
So I say, Laramie guy is speaking a different language from me; EVERYTHING is feelings. Liz argues for him: I see men all the time who can't access their feelings. I counter, you mean one type of feelings, call it FeelingsU: those are the Unacceptable feelings. (Then there are FeelingsA which are the Acceptable feelings, and both kinds are Feelings, don't pretend otherwise.) So sure, men can't access those FeelingsU. True. But then there are the acceptable feelings, the FeelingsA, the devotion of getting up early and going to the job and working your ass off and bringing home the bacon so the love of your life, your wife, and the light of your life, your kids, can have what they need. Those are feelings too. Those are feelings you would work a lifetime to support. You would die for. Soldiers who die for their country are living some very admirable feelings. As Lincoln himself at Gettysburg described it: "the last full measure of devotion". Is devotion not a feeling? To say so would be simply false.
Actually everyone always operates in a motivated frame: here's my goals, here's my commitment and aspiration, I'm going to engage in the activities of my life with the emotional depth of my committed feelings toward this outcome, and push that rock up that mountain with feeling, and those, guess what, are perfectly acceptable feelings, and men who certainly have them certainly do feel them. So you can't say Men don't have feelings. Maybe they have been trained not to express socially unacceptable feelings like vulnerability or grief, but that's not the only kind of feelings they have.
But this Trumpista in his truck, he's with you, Liz. He's saying Feelings Don't Matter. F your feelings. First I'm offended, like, Really, he doesn't care about my feelings, about me? But from his side he's saying Men like him don't get to access and express their socially unacceptable feelings, their FeelingsU, so others shouldn't get to either. I recognize this from being around plumbers. Keep your damn feelings at home, bud, be professional. Wow, that's such bullshit. Sure, FeelingsU, that makes sense. So, well, not just truck driving Trump fans think this way. But actually, everything we do is in the motivated frame of going toward the goals we are connected to by, guess what, our Feelings. So don't put down feelings, except if you want to put down your own self, because you have them too, you are nothing but a big old quivering ball of feelings, a big softie, pushing your rock up your mountain. Vulnerable as heck, but keeping a straight face and making the best of it. Don't squirm, I know who you are. And you're okay, and it's going to be okay, with your acceptable FeelingsA and your unacceptable FeelingsU too, with all your feelings, we're going to respect each other and work it out. Because that's what we do.
Hair, the original decoration. Humans have obviously evolved both long hair on heads and no hair (to speak of) on most of most bodies. The latter supports the Aquatic Ape theory, that we spent time in a wallow like a water buffalo, except maybe the boys went out hunting on the land and their hairy backs and fronts were maybe better protected by keeping a bit. Have you seen the Indian water buffaloes with pink bodies and blond mats of head hair, thick on the tops of their heads, and only on the tops of their heads, in the field on the left side of the train from Delhi to Chennai, as I have? Water wallowers, water buffaloes, and us. (Listen to Elaine Morgan make the case, which still doesn't point out the human having of swimming pools, nor this water buffalo observation.)
But we also evolved the latter: long head hair.
Footnote: An expert says horses evolved long manes by breeding, since donkeys, zebras, and true wild horses have short manes, although perhaps the domesticated ones are the ones which could be caught - by their manes and tails, so that manes preceded domestication.
In our case, it suggests selection for decoration (in a species with fire or good cutting tools, because you might not evolve it if it just gets in the way unmanaged). And what is decoration but some confusion between posturing for others and posturing for oneself? I'm against it in either case; don't you prefer reality over pretense? Wouldn't it be better if the better that things might be were real instead of pretense? So make goodness real for goodness' sake! Enough with the pretense and the pretenses and the endless fakey fakey faking fakes.
So as an expression of personal priority, I rather enjoy putting the #2 on my Wahl electric razor (1/4") to buzzcut myself. Yes, occasionally there's a flyaway that Liz has to point out, but I'm almost independent. See, the best thing about hair as far as oneself is concerned is the fuzzy feeling of friction over a short-haired scalp grown halfway from shaved to the furry pelt of hair leaning over (white guy, weak thin straight hairs). An actual shave brings a wierd, wet leatheriness to this skull, then after a few short hours it's sandpaper again, in neither case protective, nor particularly fun to rub. Then after a couple weeks the prickles get long enough to bend over under a stroking hand, and for maybe a month after, they keep that slightly stiff, fine, fun fuzziness that, maybe you know what I mean. Once they bend on their own and hair turns to pelt, then the pleasure is no longer my own but that of my hairdresser or audience, which, well I like you but really? Who sees me? And do they really see me? So I say why not, my haircut is for my own pleasure, it's as better than for any other. So.
It's a little bit like the face. The face is a signalling instrument, painted on a convenient side of the body, and made visible to everyone always. It's not a face, not your true being, not a revelation of the inner self, not the light of insight. One might think it's that, but that would be confusing the signifier with the signified. Don't be so ignorant, go take Linguistics 101: the sign has two aspects, the more or less arbitrary indicator, and the intended meaning that it stands for. The pronunciation "tree" is not the same thing as a tree, can't you tell the difference between a pattern of vibrating air and a 40 foot plant? Just so, the face is a signalling instrument, but we take it for what it indicates. We swallow the pretense.
Actually there is a stronger onomatopoetic relationship between signifier and signified when we consider the eyes; the reasoning chain is tight. The eyes tell everyone where the eyes are pointing, because as you may know the whites of the eyes are not white for gorillas, and even relatively recent versions of related humanoids did not have white colored whites in their eyes. Whites frame the circle of the retina, and a normal vector, i.e., the direction, of the orientation of the retina can be calculated by exactly how elliptical the darks of the eyes are against the whites. Ellipse major axis horizontal means the person is looking up or down; a perfectly proportioned circle means it points at you, their eyes are pointing at you, their attention is directly on you. It's a signal. From a certain ratio of major to minor axes of the ellipse you can tell what angle to the side the eyes are pointing. Here is an amazing case of geometric calculations implemented in evolved perceptual circuits (is it not?), for the purpose of making the awareness of others, the direction of their attentional focus, available visibly for each participant to know, for the purpose of signalling, and getting on the same page socially. Because if we know who is looking at us, or we know where everyone else is looking, that's a lot of good information for a social species like this.
Face signals are numerous. Pay attention to the upper lip. When someone laughs or smiles sincerely, the upper lip draws back. It's not under conscious control. That's why I hate Bruce Willis and Natalie Dormer, actors with a smirk, it seems like they're smiling but then it turns out their upper lip is pressed most firmly down, because their not actually smiling, the smile doesn't reflect their inner experience, they're just pretending to smile by doing the consciously-controllable lower-lip curls that count as smiles if you haven't learned to detect bullshit yet. Start looking around, pay attention. You can tell what's real. Like for example, tickling makes people produce sincere smiles. Well that's another story, tickling is violence often enough. But the smiling has the quality of sincerity in the signal, because you can't control t5hat upper lip. When you start watching, you'll be truly disappointed how much of of the world is full of fakers, pretending to smile, trying to communicate to you that they are smiling when actually they are not. Hopefully Kim Jung One doesn't figure this out because all his people praising his greatness and smiling for him are doing it because they have to not because they are sincere. If he were to kill all the fake smilers around him there would be noone left. Maybe it's a good thing to be ignorant of the pretenses, sometimes.
Liz says, Sorry, but what's your point?
Thanks Liz. Well the endless falseness of things, is my point. Today is just an instance of forever. Today it seems hard to get to the truth of things. Idiots are out there trolling with the simple algorithms of their simple mean minds. Alcoholics and politicians, denial machines, reverse the plain, wise, loving truth because it's personally uncomfortable, for themselves or their audiences. Hardly anyone cares to explore what's really going on; who do you know that you can actually talk to about it? Anyone? Instead we get Selling Sunset and facial plastic surgery and botox, and everyone is a climber on some very short tree, their own dominance hierarchy of valuation of whatever they value, youtube makeup channels, TikTok cat videos, wow. I'm disappointed in us. Come on folks, let's filter the bullshit from the quality, and go as deep as we can into WTF is actually going on here. Selling Sunset indeed: You are the one who is being sold.
Hair is a provocative example, because of its evolutionary depth it is itself a compelling statement about the nature of our species: we are a species of pretenders, decorators, symbolizers, posturing fakers. It goes along with human things like language, and clothing, and the counter-factual abilities to plan, negotiate, grieve, and lie. It's not all bad, but buzz-cutting with a #2 is just my one little re-prioritization, to get away from always and only pretending for others and to at least be real a little bit, for my own self. It's a tiny thing, but I know I like it.
So my point is, keep your eyes open, maintain your innocence and curiosity, be brave and humble so you can actually learn, question your own thoughts (which probably got implanted into you by others who themselves are tools of their ideology): Be careful, trust and prioritize your own original observations and thinking.
Please someone make me a Covid Mask that says "You're Welcome!"
There are two mask messages. Either I'm protecting myself from you, or, I'm protecting you from me. One is suspicious and anti-social, and the other is pro-social. When I went through my transition from yeah yeah I'm not so sure about this mask thing to Okay I'll wear one, I experienced those two messages. And part of what held me back is the first message, the anti-social mask message that the wearer broadcasts to others, saying You are Diseased and I need to Protect myself from You and Your Disease. In short, You are my Enemy. It's a bit unfriendly to be the default message to someone walking by on the street, and I don't like being a jerk all that much.
But then I realized that the opposite message is actually intended when most people are wearing masks. You have no reason to trust that I am disease free, and I might even be a symptom-free super-spreader, so what I'm going to do protect you by wearing a mask just in case. I'm your Friend. Different.
So all this political conflict about mask-wearing might be resolved if people just wore masks saying "You're Welcome". Because then the other folks that see it will understand that the wearer is their friend, not their enemy.
The term Improvised Explosive Device or IED is basically racist. It helps us think we're better than our adversaries if our weapons are "manufactured" while theirs are "improvised". It's baloney. If IEDs include shaped charges, explosively formed penetrators, if they are created in identical large numbers, if they are shipped in boxes from Tehran to Baghdad, the only difference between an IED and a mine or between an IED and a bomb is that we want to look down on the ignorance and unsophistication of our adversaries. It's Jingoism. "Improvise" means you just grab whatever is at hand and slap it together and hope it works. That might have made sense for the first year or two of the 21st century wars, but after that, it's just bullshit. If Iran is supplying these manufactured weapons to our opponents on the ground, then the only reason we keep calling them "improvised" is to pretend that their makers and users are not actually organized, not actually able to engineer successful replicatable designs, they are backward and technologically undeveloped, they don't have their shit together at all enough to make a bomb or a mine, all they can do is slap together an improvised explosive device. Bull Shit.
What's actually true is that we like to fool ourselves in ways that make us feel better about ourselves. Everyone likes to think their little group is better than every other group, and the continued use of this term particularly in the American military context is just meaningless except to support this particular and false self-deception. Please get over it. When I hear in the news about an IED, the message I get is that the speaker thinks the adversaries are some kind of disorganized backward subhumans. Instead, what I want to hear is what actually happened: was it a booby-trap, an explosively shaped charge, a landmine, a vehicle born bomb. Use descriptive terms that aren't primarily a carrier of condescension. Because if you're going to fight your enemies, then first respect them, understand them, and then if you have to, fight them, but don't disregard them as members of the modern world by implying they and their whole civilization is incapable of manufacturing anything, while then just blowing them away without regard for their humanity. Okay? Thank you.
The argument between pro and con is resolved by a little linguistics. Let's put our thinking caps on!
Everyone believes all lives matter, of course. Don't we?
Everyone therefore also believes Black Lives Matter, of course, it follows, duh.
Another way to say the same thing might be, Black Lives Do Matter, or, Black Lives Don't Not Matter. These use the contradiction marker "Do" to make it explicit that there is a contextual presupposition being contradicted, which is the point actually being made by Black Lives Matter. Isn't it?
What it seems to me the outraged "innocent" white folks don't recognize is the unspoken, linguistic-pragmatic background to the statement that gives it sense. The background, the context, is the infinitely-evidenced counter-view, seen in endless police brutality episodes, differential access to health care, yes hello the slavery, going back 500 years, where if you read the facts of what has happened you cannot fail to conclude that for such a society, which is continuous and unruptured in its descent to our own society, in that society it is obviously presupposed that black lives do not matter. It is in that context that Black Lives Matter is spoken. In that context, it is a contradiction. It is revolutionary.
White pollyanna ignoramuses evidently forget or ignore that obvious and primary context, complaining, How prejudiced of you, Why don't you say All Lives Matter, Cop Lives Matter too, and White Lives Matter too. Which is all true but totally misses the point. In their imaginary context of perfect ideal equality "Black Lives Matter" sounds like a rejection of everyone else's significance, a rejection of the value of blue lives or white lives or any other lives. But that's not so, because of the context.
In the field of linguistic pragmatics we learn how the context governs the communication. If I say "It sure is cold in here" I may mean, "Please close the window", so that the literal meaning of the words is very different from the intended message. One is an observation, the other a request. In the case of an unmarked contradiction, the context tells you what is being contradicted. If it were marked as in "Black Lives DO Matter" or "Black Lives Don't NOT Matter", then the listener can directly infer what proposition is being contradicted. Unmarked, everyone can understand the contextual presupposition of black lives having been treated as though they do not matter: that's a pretty strong context and to me it's obvious that anyone can empathize with it if they just think about it a bit.
So I say, all you haters on all sides, please please just go take a class in linguistics, and get on the same frickin page. There's no actual argument here, people. Because I don't really think anyone is saying, Black Lives Don't Matter. That is history; I don't see anyone arguing for it today except teenage tantrum-troll types who could use a spanking, a time-out, and some Jordan Peterson lectures on responsibility. Okay? Okay. Thank you.
In this time of Covid we're remodelling Liz's bathroom. Picking out materials would be easier if we could use my sweet old House Color Scheme Tester -- if it were a little more functional. Picking out colors could be easier, so today I added a color triangle with a brightness slider. Now you can easily fool around with the slider and clicking on the triangle to pick any color you want, then just copy-and-paste the generated RGB for door, siding, trim, roof, etc. "OK" gets you a new display of what those colors look like together. Incidentally, HCST now also remembers the last few color schemes tested, so you can go back a bit too. Have fun!
We have some issues with pronouns, you and me.
"We, our, us" vs "they, their, them": When I hear people using any of these my skin crawls.
These pronouns encode a required dimension in English which imposes on your circumstances a reference in-group that is yours, and a reference out-group that is not yours. "We" are in "our" group, it's "us", and "they" are in "their" group, it's "them". Ugh. F that. It's functional if your society is designed for mob action, but I think we're kind of beyond that historically, and I just want to point out to the emotionally intelligent that this is bullshit and let's all please stop, or at least be a little less stupid and mean about it.
When some prestige-group member refers to members of some minority group as "them", it just repeats the outgroup assertion. "They" are over there, in a little minority, huddled, separate, and silent, while "We" are over here having "our" conversation without "them" participating, at most maybe "they" can listen while "we" talk. "They" is a group that doesn't have the right to respond in "our" conversation.
A tiny bit of diplomatic skill or emotional intelligence consists in this: Use your pronouns inclusively, unless you actually mean to communicate the exclusivist disempowering separating point that your pronouns actually communicate. Or are you being stupid and unfriendly on purpose?
"He, She, It": If you want to use a pronoun unspecified for gender, we have a solution in English: "it". In Hindi the wife refers to her husband as "my that", because the Hindi pronoun, "woh", is unmarked for gender and animacy. If you want gender-unmarked pronouns in English, we have some: "this", "that" or "it".
First draft posted today. It's super fun. Somebody please ask me to put in some parameter controls to refine it.
My job is to make it possible to find what you want here. Suggestions? Here are some ways.
Titles: short and memorable, might not reveal enough content to pull readers to their content. I'm drawn to the idea of a TL;DR index, with a short paragraph rather than just the title, maybe a twitter announcement of it. I'll use this blog for that in future.
Recency: a sidebar. I pander to you here, because the recency bias is stupid, loses signal for noise, as if the moment's news is more important than really learning something significant for generations, millenia, even evolutionary or cosmological time. But it's there.
Favorites: another sidebar. For now, this is also weakly informative, as the choices are more about my momentary mode while writing rather than your mood now.
Genres & Media Types: my primary outline structure. This seemed the best for quite a while, but my list has gotten long and even types of stuff like Projects or Services have become large and noisy.
Sciences: I was tickled to notice most of my essays fit into the subject tree of all sciences. See Deep Thoughts -> Mine.
Google: Wow, they actually sort of solved this. Google "tomveatch.com Gravity", and you'll probably get what you actually want. Hmm.
I've been thinking about galaxies again and I figured out: how spiral arms get sucked into the end of the bar of a bar galaxy; how the spiral arms are separated from the faster-spinning galactic core; how Doppler has higher energy as well as higher frequency; how spiral arms rotate so much more slowly than expected. See Gravity is BS.
I happened to be studying some Korean history where I found out that double entry accounting was invented there 500 years before the Italians figured it out. You know my interest in this so I clicked on double entry accounting in Wikipedia and Yes indeeed, they still have the inscrutable unexplained list of what's Dr and what's Cr which you have to memorize to be an accountant. This is the essence of the professional obfuscation that keeps the rest of us ignorant of their mysteries. Read Sweet Accounting if you want to (a) become one of them, or (b) never be flummoxed by one again, or simply (c) get the simple idea of it.
I thought I'd clarify how why the alternative explanations of galaxy spiral arms, namely standing waves and dark matter influences, are bad ideas. See Gravity is BS.
You know the Golden Rule: Do to others what you would have them do unto you. But do you know the Iron Rule? Don't do for others what they can do for themselves. The Iron Rule applies to children in development (so they can develop), to old folks in decline (so they can not decline so fast), and for volunteers in a volunteer organization (so it can multiply its powers). Where else?
First burn the herd, then have herd immunity.
Sorry, I'm not very PC. Actually I'm a great big snowflake, but also a plumber by trade, and cursing and sexism in language are par for the course in the trades, so get over it. Do you need your toilet fixed or not?
Truth be told: Cursing is a sign of intimacy with the listener, because when you don't curse, you are carefully not expressing passion, not revealing your true feelings, which is appropriate with remote strangers when you have to put on a good face. Therefore, consider it a good sign if someone is comfortable enough to curse in your presence.
Young man, listen to me. You're looking at someone, I know. And before you get her, it's Look, Don't Touch, and maybe for you, yes for me growing up, skinny looked hot. So if you're still 14, I understand.
But once you got her, now it's Snuggle Time and you need Squeezable, not all bones. I mean, are you a mammal or not? We are mammals; we snuggle.
So yes, squeezing and holding and nuzzling in and being close is WAY better than Looking, hello, so get your priorities straight.
So no, it's
not about Skinny for very long, unless you're some loser that
can't make a relationship work.
Just one (Cis/Man) opinion.
Think about Jefferson, yes he aimed at a place higher than where he stood, he wrote that all men are created equal while his brother in law was in the next room serving him as a slave. But consider how far we have come, and how much farther to go.
The original Roman laws said a man by right can kill his own son and it is no crime; worse yet, he can sell his son into slavery, the son can work himself out of slavery, he can sell his son into slavery again, and the son can work himself out of slavery again, and he can then kill his son, and it is still no crime. Only after three times selling his son into slavery does killing the son become a criminal act. Now THAT is patriarchy, THAT is an unjust society for a society that considered itself to be a democracy.
Did the Romans consider themselves a democracy? The Roman law said that if someone planned to become the king, then it was no crime to kill that person, without any further evidence than your belief that they have planned it. Because we don't tolerate anyone trying to be the king here where we have a democracy, and we are ready to fight, to kill, and to die for it. Yes it was a democracy. But no, not everyone had voting rights, not to start; the people who created the right to vote against tyrants and enemies all up in their faces gave themselves the right to vote first, and yes they had to establish the thing, and fight off those tyrants and enemies, and only after it became nice and safe and stable they started to let other people in from outside their small in-group of tough, mean, ready-to-fight, heartless, slave-keeping fathers who were very touchy about their rights.
We have come a long way since Rome, folks. Jefferson brought us a long way forward already, even just for having the idea of universal equality. And we have a long way to go still. Once we fix the bullshit of prejudice on the basis of race and gender, we are still far from done. Still we have severe, deep, prejudices when we call people fat or ugly or stupid or even foreign with negative intent and negative effects. Does disrespect on any of those dimensions hold water? F no. Humans deserve respect no matter what.
So yes, Black Lives Matter, let's move to a better future, but we can also recognize that even the Romans, those bastards also helped, by bringing us forward out of tyranny. Jefferson helped, bastard though he was and made of his own children, by writing the very words of the Declaration. Lincoln helped, bastard though he was, emancipating the slaves, even while thinking the slaves should all go back to Africa. Wilson helped, bastard though he was, pushing for a League of Nations. Johnson helped, bastard though he was, signing the Civil Rights act. And the whole society, backward though it was, has ultimately helped by gradually moving in the direction of justice. Let's all be some bastards that are helping, and seek the better Way, despite our flaws. As so many have done for thousands of years.
But if you can't tolerate in your allies in progress any trace of the flaws of our time and our culture, you're probably not going to have a lot of allies. Pick your battles, and win them. Then please, let's not forget to get to work afterwards against anti-fat, anti-ugly, anti-stupid, anti-foreign hates and prejudices.
Cop = Social Worker + Gun.
Don't hire Anger Management problems.
Is the issue police racism or police personality and character? If you hire people that share a character, don't be surprised if their culture has that character. If you hire cops for their concrete-minded, hard-headed, happily-punitive personality, don't be surprised if you have an unchangeable cop culture that is is emotionally and socially unintelligent.
Not All, but ... Plenty ... of cops are ex-military looking for a gun-toting civilian job, to maintain their gun-toting identities with as much opportunity to practice and use their gun-toting skills as civilian life can offer. Plenty are street bully characters who seek a legal outlet for their violent instincts. They would love to put the neck crank or the billy club on a deserving individual, subject to their authority and whim, and they especially love it that doing so is imagined as the right thing to do because the deserving individual is some low life criminal. Very satisfying! Such temperaments are frankly anti-social.
But the job of policing is MOSTLY calming disputes, settling social conflicts, guiding people back into the lanes of pro-social behavior. Convening and facilitating, not being quick on the draw. This is a job that requires social and emotional intelligence.
But those are sophisticated skills that are harder to teach. Better to hire social workers, and teach them to shoot, than to hire covert predators and try to teach them social skills which others learned in kindergarten.
The answer is simple: Every police candidate should be tested for social and emotional intelligence, and should be rejected, not hired, if Below Average in Social/Emotional Intelligence.
A valuable, potentially fragile, and presumed-innocent public deserves to not have emotional retards as the go-to professionals who come to calm and help resolve our local social conflicts. So instead of Defund the Police, I say:
EQ-Test the Police!
Another invention to improve the world: Make a small device, size of a pill, swallowable, with one side open revealing a length of sterilized mesh tape, containing a reel-to-reel tape mechanism, motor to turn it, power source to last the duration of transit, perhaps electronic logic to control speed, turn it on and off on a schedule, even open/close the window. Turn it on, swallow it, and wait for it to pop out the other end. Rinse it off, take it to the lab, pull the tape out, cut it into short bits each containing what sloshed into it during the moments it was exposed inside; the populations of what's there at each point give a map of the microbiome along the length of the gut.
In yesterday's news I read that some cancer researchers have just discovered that toxicity of cancer drugs can vary 100x from tolerable up to ultra-toxic based on small differences in nutrition, adding a single amino acid to an animal subject's food. Presumably the gut biome is involved, some bugs flourish and interact with the body system with huge effects like this. I had this invention in mind some years before October 2018 when I mentioned it to a micro-biome researcher that I met at a class reunion. I haven't heard anyone doing it still, so here I share it with the world. Somebody move on this, please. It should enable better study of what is going on inside, and one may hope can contribute to science and medicine.
Everyone is so Attached to their Self-declared Identity, whether sexual, ethnic, national, or otherwise. What bullshit! We are all wandering around like ducklings in the story, Are you my Mommy? Are you my Mommy? But instead we ask, This is Me? This is Me?
All identities are false, humans! Male, female, trans, black, white, whatever. For example: Yes I "am" a straight white male, I've had my own share of oppression, go fuck yourself. Really, that's what I'm supposed to do? How was that for you? It wasn't so pleasant for me either, though the identity-bound (i.e., the ignorant) will look at each statement and consider it all "true".
No, I am against all identities whether it's about you being gay, man, woman, whatever, the whole identity capture process, which is what we go through psychologically when we make such a claim, is fundamentally all about being fearful, tightly grasping, socially posturing like an over performing semi-member, a joiner. False, false!
Your true identity is distinction-inclusive, non-finite. You are, and have the right to be treated as, a divine spark from heaven. You have no business occluding that brightness with some attachment game that prevents you seeing your true nature.
Imagine a competent normal person by day, who enters a Narnian wonderworld of out-of-control nightmare every evening when lying down to sleep, where you can't even scream out in your pain, you can't escape your miserable trap, all you can do is hang in there like a suffering dog through the long night until enough rest has been collected that you can awaken again, shake off the immobility and stupidity, and find the normal daytime powers of perception and logic once again at your service, so that unreasonable fears can be banished and fantastical disasters detected as false. Seems like a temporary problem, wouldn't you think? Yet every night once again I lay myself down to sleep, I enter that world again. No wonder I don't like to go to bed.
Blogs are repulsive, to me, being, imagine it, a Time! sequence of what may randomly occur to click-bait writers as clickable at the time. Historians may be interested in blogs as historical data, and current readers may indeed click the bait, but it is increasingly and painfully evident that clicking some bait brings no improvement in your understanding, yourself, or the world. Really, the internet, which is to say, all this technological support for learning and intellectual growth, was suddenly made available to the entire world beyond the university library customer and now what we get is cat videos and intellectual mush. Really?
The essence of a log is to record what's happening now, to be specifically relevant to today as opposed to any other time, and therefore is irrelevant to tomorrow. Don't you hope, don't I aspire, to have a more lasting significance than that?, to learn what won't change, what will be widely relevant, what can be understood without reference to current news or people's false thought that the micro changes of the current historical micro-instant have changed everything and made everything suddenly so significant and suddenly requiring complete reinterpretation of everything? Whereas, actually, as Borges pointed out, all places are "here", all times are "now" (and all people are "me"), so the fact the entire web of people basically organize their thoughts calendrically means their thoughts lack an better alternative organization or you might say, any actual content. Yes Now is the time to Be, but Speech allows abstraction, generalization, saying things that are True, significant beyond the current moment, so why would you essentially assert the universal meaninglessness of what you have to say by sticking it in a log, a web log, a blog? This is why, for 20 years, I refrained.
Even so, here I begin my own blog. A log of data points, of small or hopefully at least concise thoughts or observations, tidbits which have no home, yet. A reader interested in what's going on Here, Now, with Me can peek here for the fun of it. Have fun!