How far can this take you?
In a dream First Teacher appeared standing
I saw him and went to full pranaam, he hit me on the back with a stick:
- 1st time, pain, and my spine full straight (it made me so happy!)
- 2nd time, bliss (gratitude, happiness)
- 3rd time, can't remember, I was out.
What a lucky, auspicious, blessed dream!
Footnote: it occurs to me that this can only be interpreted in the context of unconditional love for a completely trusted saint whose every action is understood as the highest love. No, I wouldn't probably like it if anyone else hit me with a stick, on an average day somewhat due to the stick and somewhat due to an inference of hostile intention. But a beloved saint might be a different situation. Just something to consider.
To me this was a healing of my anxiety, a statement like, Get out, vile self-oppression! And it worked, and brought me joy.
Footnote: Bliss in non-ego-calculating, in ignorance, means it is in animals, in babies, even in sleep; it is a default, and even death returns to it. Only sleep's awakening brings you back.